wheres my pride.

2005-07-26T22:40:00.000+08:00

today was a damn slack day.
but damn fun. and very funny.
berdy was designing her tombstone la..
it was like as if she cant wait to die.
she offered to design ours but u can guess our reactions haha.
her design was like..
there will be flowers everywhere (not that anyone would give her flowers)
and there will be a photo of a bird that looks like a fish.
and a beeg "HALO!!!"
ahh i almost died laughing lol.
and we tried to draw smiley faces on syllie's skirt haha.
and on everybody's legs too.
i had to scrub my legs like crazy while bathing la..so stupid
i bet syllie's pen marks will still be there la.
cos she doesnt bathe.

everyone's so close now.
im so happy.
yay :)
no one hates anyone now.
and everybody loves everybody.
esp me. haha.
everybody loves me = everybody loves everybody.
blobby loves me.
syllie loves me.
berdy and jocie loves me more.
im so touched im gonna cry.
wahahahha.

goodnight.
i go sleep ready

2005-07-24T23:34:00.000+08:00

another thing i told myself to blog about..
is the curry incident.
i noe its kinda overdue but at least i still blogged lol

during chinese lesson, one supercalifragalistic friggin' fugly bitch spilt our classmate's curry.
and instead of apologising and at least showing the least sign of guilt..
she moved her table away and took out a tissue.
we all thot the tissue was for wiping the floor or something..
to our greatest horror..she actually wiped her bloody stinkin shoe.
fuck. her shoe more imp than our class?
ok la..maybe more smelly la..
but excuse me..ur not in ur own class..ur in 3f lo..
dun even have the courtesy to do anything..
u think ur in ur territory ar..can shit wherever u want.
suck ur toe la.
we were behind bitching ever so loudly abt u..
and u smiled.
u smiled!! that friggin' smile that made ur eyes smaller.
goodness la u..u want to make ur eyes disappear is it..
and ur hair looks like weed la..
u noe those that pple trample on?
ahh wadeva.
i swear if u ever be so rude and inconsiderate again..
i'll pour curry into ur shoe
raisins are dumb..
regardless of whether they're black or golden..
they're pruny and ugly..
explains it all

2005-07-24T22:57:00.000+08:00

i noe berdy is jealous of me haha.
i just noe it.
cos of my adorable bird.
its a really fat spoilt bird.
it just eats and sleeps all day.
whenever im watching tv, she will fly onto my lap and lie down.
shes like adorable to the max la.
then she will close her eyes and sleep.
and when we're eating fruits in front of the tv..
she will fly and sit on the table in front of us..
gazing at us with her innocent eyes.
then we will cut the fruits and feed her.
when she sits down..
she looks very round and fat..
like a feather ball haha.
damn cute la.

my bro's gf's colleague found the bird on the grass patch one day..
the baby bird had fallen down from its nest..
and had its wings broken..
it couldnt fly..
so she brought her back.
and passed her to my bro's gf.
and now its here.lol.
just a couple of weeks back it was featherless and weak and skinny.
now its just like a..ball.
its very pretty too.
she has green and yellow feathers.
aww i love her. birdy.

oh and abt the two goldfishes..
they are as fat as ever too.
so its like.. whatever animals in my house will become fat haha.
that explains my size.
obese =)

i havent been blogging..
and when i do, i blog abt animals.
haha i dunno wads up with me la..but ya. lol

2005-07-16T22:19:00.000+08:00

watched fantastic four today.
nice. damn nice.
i sympathise with the thing
cos its called the thing
and also cos its rocky and ugly and feels unloved.
but i think hes nice and buffy..
and cute. just like lone.
hahhaha.
i liked the part when the blind woman liked him
and they got together. so sweet.
if i could have any of the super powers of the four of them..
i would want to be invisible.
then i can be anywhere without anyone knowing.
so if anyone talks behind my back..
i can yank her hair out of her scalp..
or pinch her all over..
or stuff her fork up her nose.
without her knowing who did it.
yay..
all bitches who think they reign can go to hell.

blobby was kinda pissed with me.
but i only noticed ytd.
could see she was all cold and stuff..
and i really dunno wad to say about this..
just that shes still my best friend
and would always be. i hope.
anyway today went fine..
right..?

theres something in my tummy.
its like trying to squirm its way up..
i think i swallowed a moth
nvm haha.

byeee

2005-07-08T22:47:00.000+08:00

i can spend hours..
just staring at and observing 2 goldfishes.
how cool is that haha.
ok la but my grandmummy can spend her whole day talking to them.
so i guess i'm not the extreme lol

i think the fishie in my pretty fish tank..
is ultra cool.
normal fishes swim horizontally..
but one of those fishies swim vertically.
it was struggling the whole time
and the other fishie kept tagging behind him haha.
my adorable fishes.
if only i could communicate with them in any way..

the second time i went to look at the fish,
it was swimming upside down.
imagine that. a fish swimming upside down.
and he was even at the surface of the water..
so his tummy was sticking out of the water..
his tail too.
i went to 'boo' it and it jumped..
i was afraid that it would leap out of the fish tank..
so i didnt do that again
hahaha.
thats all about my marvellous fishies.

today was another good day..
hmm but i skipped chinese remedial..
anyway no one was going.
so i went out with leon..
and had fun :)

2005-06-26T02:02:00.000+08:00

i'm busy taking quizzes now..
from the site that joannie introduced me to
www.quizbox.com
haha..its like..
there are 11 full pages of quizzes..
too many to complete.
way cool.
wad blob said is true..
its super accurate.
so go try when ur bored :)

i wun bother posting the results here..
since there are like too many.
and would be rather boring too.
so..yup.
goodnight!
im gonna play neopets now lol.

2005-06-23T16:12:00.000+08:00

yay.
our joint blog is finally completed..
stayed up with leon till abt 5:30 last night to do our special blog.lol.
although he kept distracting me while i was discussing the blog stuff with him..
with his nonsense hahaha.
he helped to improve the bloggie later. :)
yupp so its all done now.
growingold2gether.blogspot.com
so sweet right.. i noe i noe.
leon suggested tilldeathwillwepart etc..
but it was all die
die.
die.
so... wahahhaha.

blobby is in choir camp.
sian.
dun have her to bitch with me.
i miss her.
syllie didnt go cos she's sick hha..
sick mammoth.
but i bet i made her feel better with my kindness.lol

school's reopening in..
3 days time?
but the hols homework are all not done.
bah who cares..
i bet everyone's like tt too. haha.

okie i'll go play neopets now..
while waiting for baby to finish with his stuff lol
see ya!

2005-06-17T14:49:00.000+08:00

who doesnt hate backstabbers.
but the thing is..
some pple dun even noe wad is actually happening.
u say " i noe everything "
when the truth is that u only judge things from wad U THINK
and not wad things actually are.

and for heavens sake.
stop using reverse psychology..
it has no effect.
at all.

u post and tell the whole world..
desperately calling everyone arnd u..
trying ur very best to influence them.
u dun care at all abt how others feel..
u only bother abt ur own feelings..
ur own benefits.
thats damn selfish la.
ok ok i noe..
u want everybody on ur side..
well who doesnt.
but u dun have to use such despicable means.
u claim ur holy and stuff..
but backstabbing, and telling lies..
thats not holy at all..
in fact u should noe it..
that ur sinning.

do anything u want.
i'll stand by blobby forever.
we dun welcome u into our lives

2005-06-09T15:55:00.000+08:00

BABY... came back today.. missed u like crazy but lucky could call u or not i would like be dead by now.. just refused to surrender my phone.. LOVE U.. den after the camp going home tt time straight away go call u =) Den i was very happy to hear ur voice.. den u say go home den call u again.. den when reach sch.. very fast den go liaoz.. but den got a lot of ppl waiting for taxi outside the sch.. sianz.. reach my turn le.. very happy leh.. coz can quickly go home and call u.. den u somemore say wan to meet at 1.30.. den tt time going to 1.30 le.. so very rush.. go home first thing go bathe den try to bathe very fast lah but den like very itchy everywhere so put a lot of soap and shampoo.. finish le go call u.. when i look at the clock.. shit man.. 1.40 le u say 1.30 den i tot tt die liao u sure scold me like crazy wan.. but den nv.. lolx.. den duno how come but suddenly become going to 4 liaoz.. but we still havent go yet.. den i started to lie on my bed while toking.. den actualli already very tired le mah den plus the bed very comfortable den was like falling aslp le.. the eyes cannto open.. but i still try very hard to stay awake.. try very hard to open them.. play those loud songs.. but den still cannot.. den u got angry lah.. dun blame u.. den u like very sad coz i wan to slp.. sorry k.. lets go out tmr.. den just now my parents wanted to tok to me.. coz i didnt even tell them i was coming home.. lolx.. coz too busy toking to my baby.. so just now had to put down.. i will call u back later k.. now very very tired, slpy, hungry so plz excuse my temper baby..MUACKZ.. love u loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads and loads.. *panting* Hahax.. i love u baby.. dun be angry with me le k... sorry..................... SMUACKZ

...as i continue to love u endlessly

2005-06-07T05:34:00.000+08:00

BABY!!!! baby.. baby.. baby..... tt was wat my brother heard me slp tok at night noe.. i' m getting ready to go for the lame camp ready noe.. i will miss u noe.. i will miss u alot alot.. HUGS.. maybe i'm supposed to be rushing a bit but i dun care.. i muz post for u.. coz u wan.. tt day u got so angry and upset.. sorrie k baby...?? den hope yesterday when u go out u were happy.. coz tt most imp.. muackz.. didnt get much slp.. coz we toked and toked till duno wat time.. and according to u is our longest time toking.. so quite tired.. but i dun mind.. as long can hear from voice.. den u should get more slp k??? u got nuthing on.. i think.. den slp until 1pm like lazy pig.. hahax.. ahhhh.. lame camp..i dun wan to go.. i wan to go out with u.. and tok to u all day long.. sobz.. but cannot.. i will try to call u k?? if i nv plz understand k?? den i will call u immediately after the camp.. on the bus back to sch.. SMUACKZ.. so sad i dun wan to stop typing.. but i need to go bathe.. SOBZ.. baby........... I LOVE U!!! wait for me k?? =) and rmb wat i promise u.. so dun worry.. we go out when i come back k??? muackz muackz muackz.. kkz i go le.. rmb to blog in my blog baby.. muackz.. love ya.. byez.. i'll miss u... SMILEZ!!! =) i love u so much i did this in ur favourite colour... PINK!! ok ok bye..... wait for me dear... sobz.. i will continue to love u endlessly....

Leon

2005-06-05T22:41:00.000+08:00

fuck la.
im not appreciated.
pple hate me so damn easily.
i should juz shut my god damn trap.
open so big talk so much for wad..
the whole world can stop loving me for all i care.
fuck all of u.
small thing then quarrel quarrel.
ya la..everything is my fault la.
all the stupid things that happen to u..
is all caused by me la. happy?
wadeva lo
dun love me then dun love me la.
still pretend wad shit
im a damn ass fucking bitch can.
sorry la..
i cant stop it.
blame me la.
this is wad i call everlasting love man.

baby

2005-06-05T16:35:00.000+08:00

this is lone.
my lone.
so cute rite
wahahahhaha.

banner

2005-06-04T21:57:00.000+08:00

i did another artpiece.
but now it has joanne's real face.
its a banner i made for her.
i think its really pretty..
it was so difficult to color but its damn nice :))

im off.

blob

2005-06-04T21:36:00.000+08:00

because i love joanny so much,
i drew many beautiful pictures of her.
i'm an artist in making lo.
bow to me.

my very first masterpiece..
is simple and pure.
it portrays the child-like innocence of ellie.

my next beautiful painting..
is a picture of joanne's mesmerising smile.
damn pretty.

yes.
thats my beloved momo.
the last pic is of her proclaiming her love for me..
aww..so sweet..

i love blobby!
i abandoned her that day..
and didnt play water balloons with her..
but shes not angry now :)
yay.
so i drew pweety pictures for her.

link

2005-06-04T20:17:00.000+08:00

lemme show u some really cute pics of blob.

her eyes are detached lo..
FUGLY!!
and next one is my all time favourite..

yay! cute right.
now she looks like syllie.
she has syllie's ears and nose.
wahahaha

and today blobby and me went to www.blogthings.com to do quizzes..
we did a quiz 'what breed of puppy are u'
and i was a golden retriever puppy..
while blob was a black puppy. lol.

my birth date means that..
i am inclined to work well with people haha.
and i'm talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas, and also very good at organization and systematizing..woot.
i may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel..i love my itchy feet wahhaha.
i tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable
my mind is quick, clever and analytical.
a restlessness in my nature may make me a bit impatient and easily bored with routine, and rebel against it..
and lastly, i have a tendency to shirk responsibility. yay. wahahaha.
LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM. roar.

and my wonderful name is so meaningful lo.

M is for mesmerizing
E is for extraordinary
L is for liberal
I is for intelligent
S is for striking
S is for serene
A is for alluring
W is for witty
O is for overwhelming
N is for natural
G is for godlike
M is for mysterious
E is for enthusiastic
I is for impressive
Y is for yummy
I is for industrious
N is for nice
G is for gentle

i hate to admit it..
but its like absolutely true haha.
but i dunno why.. the descriptions always changes

i did it for blobby and her lampost and lone too.
blob said its quite accurate :)

okie. im off to draw joanne now.
wait for me

stupid siewmin charsiewbao

2005-05-29T18:35:00.000+08:00

hi.
this is the one of the very rare ocassions when i come and blog.

some pple think they are damn great and influential.
its like.. wth..
just because u dun like joanne means the whole world muz hate her and keep away from her ar.selfish brat.
just because u THINK shes not a good fren..
doesnt mean other pple share ur sentiments
how would u even noe when u have not even been frens with her..
dun anyhow assume things then think u are right
and spread the word and think everyone agrees with u.
JOANNE'S THE BEST FREN U CAN EVER GET.
its like shes our fren and not urs..
so wad right do u have to say that u dun even like her character.
if u analyse pple's character and not like it..
then good for u la. keep it to urself for heavens sake.
no need to ask her frens to be cautious of her right..
thats like damn downright despicable can.
shes OUR fren.. so scram. roar.

its the dumbest thing i've ever heard.
so u think ur a super good fren huh..
ur juz red and fugly.

i mean..
its not even ur business whether we like her or not.
and so sorry,
but we LOVE her. totally.
upset? wadeva.
ur propaganda's not working la..
no matter how hard u try to make pple hate her..
its useless.

another thing, ur looks scare us
u look like a charsiewbao.
no wait..
at least charsiewbaos are cute.
i said u look like a suckling peeg
and joanne said u look like the suckling pig's shit.
and i totally agree.

i love blobby.
so siewmin, if u hate her..
or think shes not a good fren
or think she some kind of fako..
thats ur problem.
stop giving her trouble..
its really unwanted.
sshooo

hi

2005-05-15T16:36:00.000+08:00

HI
yay i posted.
jonny muz be proud of me
ok.. see ya

jooooaannnee

2005-04-04T23:59:00.001+08:00

i blogged about dear berdy.
now its elmo's turn.

i went out with joanne today!
okiez let me relate everything that happened or was said after school. :)
after c.e lesson, we met in class and joanne and i were quite evil cos we didn't allow poor berdy to go out with us. awww.. but we still love u berdy.
then joanne requested for her to come along. but blurted out that we wanted her money only. how dumb lol..
so berdy left and i told her to get back with david. to make up and make love.
o=)
ya then we left for bugis taking a cab.
we took soo damn long juz to get a cab.and of cos, its all joanne's fault again.
then in the taxi she was giving the weird theory of flagging for a cab.
the first time we tried to flag, we were pouting but not using her magic rose.
( oh btw, i'll talk more about that fugly rose later. )
the second time, we still failed. cos she used her magic rose but forgot to pout.
the third time, it was my fault. cos she did the perfect combination but i didnt -.-
u see now. why i love joanne so much..shes weird lol.
in the cab, we calculated how much money we had together and roughly how much we would spend.
joanne was quite evil. cos she ate up all my money wahahaha
we spent.. ok not spent. lets use the word that joanne used. we SPLURGED 20bucks on taking neoprints.
13bucks on food. cant blame her. shes a blob.. i had nothing to do with it. im super innocent kae.
oh ya.. the taxi fare costed us $6.
so everything adds up to 39bucks
we were trying so hard to keep a low budget.
but we juz couldnt help it.

while we were at beard papa.
we met a girl from a different school whose uniform was about the same color as ours.
then she was telling her mother that we had the same uniform.
and joanne, being her usual nosy self, went to eavesdrop.
she said " our uniform looks so much nicer and healthier lorz. like algae. "
WAHAHAHHAHA
dumbdumb joanne.kept making me laugh the whole dae.
after buying everything, i was left with 5cents. that juz shows how blobby joanne is.
then she kept laughing and using her magic rose to hit my head.
she was obviously juz jealous of my pure intelligience.
then i told her about wad i did onboard the singapore airlines.
the tv onboard aircraft was spoilt.and i couldnt watch my spongebob show.
so i was upset so i asked my mummie to complain wahahah.. evil me.
in the end, they refunded us with some expensive chocolate. valhort or something.. dunno lahz.
then she kept laughing. dumbo.

when we wanted to go home.
joanne still could not accept the fact that we were poor and were practically like beggars.
she still wanted to take a cab.
but i was fine with it too :)
so we took a cab and i called for my maid to bring money down.
but we hated the stoopid taxi driver cos he was damn attitude..
yea that was the end of our wonderful dae. im sure elmo was sad that it had to come to an end. bwahahah.

i love elmo. she gave me so much fun =)

elmo's fugly rose

2005-04-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

i forgot to talk about joanne's fugly rose.
she learnt how to arrange flowers and wrap them nicely.but apparently, she still failed. hahaha
and she was carrying that fugly rose arnd.and it was super embarassing.gosh
but it was named later - "magic rose"
i wonder how it even came about.
while walking out of school, joanne commented on how nice her ribbon was.
and i almost choked while laughing.
cos it reminded me of zoe from sesame street.
her hair looked like weed coming out of the ribbon.which looked juz like the rose.
and i bumped into a lil girl =(
but she was soo cute cos she was still smiling at me.
juz making me feel more guilty only.
ya so..i had fun today with joanne and her magic rose.lol

fugly berdy

2005-04-04T18:40:00.000+08:00

ok. i promised that i would post about berdy.
its spelt b-e-r-d-y because no one even cares how its spelt.
cos shes supposed to be a bird.
thats wad joanne and i did during physics when it was super bored..

firstly, i would like to show the whole world how berdy's thunderthighs look like.
from the first look, it looks damn beeg and chunky.like it could kill anyone.
its orange with pink fugly stripes on it.

next, berdy is reallie reallie scary and horrifying.
she has beeg eyes.
beeg eyes are supposed to make pple look cute and innocent, but for her, its a different case.
she looks like a ghastly bird. and super evil..
her beak is beeg and unsightly too. so unlike mine.
i have the best beak in the world. and im proud of that..
sometimes i seriously feel sad for berdy.
u think all those are bad enough?
nnooo..
she has ruffled feathers to make things worse
her feathers are so ruffled and messy.
like she has not bathed for months.
unlike me again, since i feel so waxy, rubbery and glossy.
thus making myself look a bright and radiant yellow. plus not forgetting cute and chubby.
there she is..

can u see in the picture that its actuallie meant for children?
a tv's gift to children?? a gift?!
poor lil children. having to stand such horror at such a young age.
i hope they dun get traumatised or something.
hope they're doing fine..

oh and sometimes, when berdy is tired and sleepy, she would look dead and stoney.
when she stones, she doesnt look cute like me..
she looks like this ->

totally dead and scary rite? yes i noe..
and in my previous post, i said that joanne and i would like to deep fry berdy.
cos shes infected.
after that, we would feed her to pchan.
i pity berdy. for living such a sad life.

okiez. this post is posted specially for my dear fren- beeg berdy~!!
hope u like it berdy! its dedicated to u. =D

dun hurt elmo

2005-04-03T23:46:00.000+08:00

oh and one more thing.
try not to hurt my dear elmo.
i love her..
so i'll not like u too if u hurt her

fcking spy

2005-04-03T22:10:00.000+08:00

I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wads the prob with some pple
i juz simply dun get it
theres this like damn idiotic fugly irritating and totally nonsensical spy out there.
whom i would like to pull out and slap 1000 times and strip every strand of hair of and dunk his head in a pail of reallie filthy water and hold it there until he dies.hoping that he drinks some of it.
arghh wadeva..
WTH IS WRONG WITH U
do u take joy in making other pple's life miserable.
im juz an innocent lil duck lorz. mind u..
and i dun think i did anything to harm u.
because, emphasizing again, im so damn innocent
stop poking ur nose into everything lahz.
nothing in the world needs ur nose it in.
so stop it or i'll chop it off. ggrrr
i hate going to the market cos im afraid of seeing those hairy heartless men carrying choppers cutting their meat.ok now i noe they're called butchers.
but i'll conquer my fear.. juz for u
so u better be grateful
so all in all, whoever u are.
I JUZ HATE U.

ok done.. i should be alrite now.
afterall, im innocent :)

love my frens

2005-04-02T15:09:00.000+08:00

i went to syl's blog too..
and i'm touched.
i love u snuffles!
i'll always be here to draw ur elephants for u!

i'll always be there for elmo too.
i love elmo too
tho she has a beeg and fugly nose and she drools =)

going to church later.
after service, would be going to grandpapie's place cos its his bdae..
hes prettie sick, so my mummie called the caterer.
and i guess i wont be able to go for the congre meeting
its gonna be real boring at grandpapie's house

boring dae

2005-04-02T14:05:00.000+08:00

talking to daniel now..
and he juz told me that 2 pple juz got kicked out from syf..
huiping and himself.. wth lorz
chia is a faggot.. he muz be blind or something
i've nvr hated band so much before.. and now hes making it all worse..
dumb dumb.. u can juz die
i wonder how huiping's doing now.. daniel said she broke down
ahh~ how can dumb dumb chia torture my friends juz like that..
its raining now.. hope he juz slips and falls..
ok nothing much lahz.. juz wish huiping's feeling alrite now

and i miss khia peng.
juz sent her a msg - "i miss u =("
aww.. im sweet right.. ya i noe it.. hahaha..

i think i think alot when im alone..
no actuallie, i think too much..
i always think of the past and always miss it
tho my present life is not bad either..
but i'm losing so many friends..
and somehow.. i wont be bothered of the future so i wun think about it
when i stone, i dun juz stone.. im thinking about stuff ok haha..
thus im a prettie nice stoner..
i love stoning. i simply love it..
i think it calms me down and i would feel relaxed after stoning for a while..
ya im a weird duck
but its not that i want to stone either.. i juz cant help it..

im craving for soap now.
lots of soap..
so i was talking to joanne and shes going to bring me peach and coconut flavoured soap..
so kind of her
and elmo wants me to blog about her. so here goes..
i asked her out last night but she has tuition today
so she leaves me all alone at home now
oh and we planned to kill birdie cos she spreads the bird flu and causes an epidemic which makes us having to get injections.
everyone's terrified of injections..
at least i am..
so we wanna kill birdie and deep fry her
but because shes infected and we wun want to get her disease..
so we're feeding her to pchan.
then they can die together

im so bored at home now.
ok lets see wad im doing..
im stoning while waiting for leon's msg..
when the msg comes, i reply
and begin stoning and rotting again..
thats quite fun..
its recommendable. maybe u shud try it too..
bbaahhz

snort snorts

2005-04-01T22:55:00.000+08:00

i kinda liked school todae.. dunno why but i think it was quite fun.. cos its a friday lol.. had the lit dumb dumb thing.. then emaths test which is a sure fail.. and i think 3f celebrated april fools dae prettie well.. imran wrote "look up.theres a footprint on the ceiling." on a piece of paper then passed arnd in the audi during amaths.. wahahaax.. then chinese was as usual.. but homing veri poor thing.. then ss.. when we had to see nanibooboo's face again.. ooh and to syl, ur my bez fren!! hahahah..

after school.. went out with leon.. watched a movie.. couldnt catch the name of it at firz.. ok now i noe how to say it out but dunno how to spell.. ahh wadeva.. it was funnie.. full of snorting wahahaax..

aniwae i still havent gotten over that character in the 9pm show.. zhihao's mother.. shes such a.. irritating freak.. she shud be the one going for the dialysis instead of the other kind old woman.. make her suffer and poke all the beeg fat needles into her.. poke poke poke.. muahahaha..

fck u

2005-03-31T22:51:00.000+08:00

I'M GOD'S CHILD!! WHETHER U LIKE IT OR NOT.. NOT HAPPIE ARHZ.. U THINK WAD.. GOD ONLI LOVES U HUHZ.. HES URS ARHZ.. DREAM ON LAHZ.. STOOPID PEEG.. UR AN ANGEL LAHZ HUHZ.. AND WOW~ IN THE WHOLE WORLD, UR THE ONLI ONE WHO READS THE BIBLE?! NO ONE ELSE READ LEHZ~ AWWWW... GOD ONLI TALK TO U LEHZ.. HE IGNORES EVERYONE ELSE~ WTF LAHZ.. USE UR BRAINS LORZ.. IF U HAVE.. BLARDIE MORON.. AND MY BF IS SO NOT GONNA DUMP ME.. WADEVA.. AND YES! U ARE FAT!

=)) im quite nice actuallie.. im juz mean to pple who deserve it..

notti notti =x

2005-03-24T23:36:00.000+08:00

was with leon todae.. =)) muahahahha.. lol.. dun want to elaborate..

meeting lao niang tmr morning at 9.. cos she wants to talk to me.. btw shes my cell leader lol.. yup so have to wake up early

sick

2005-03-22T20:43:00.000+08:00

didnt go to school todae.. cos im sick.. actuallie nothing much lahz.. juz that my forehead is hot and i cant breathe and my throat hurts.. yea thats all.. my brother brought me to see the doctor todae.. haha then he veri funnie.. he said," wa ur voice veri nice" lol.. wth lorz.. then he ask me how mani daes mc i want.. reluctantly, i said 1 wahahaax.. after that went home.. and it was damn boring.. weirong called me after school.. said that she had some guides thing.. so she couldnt come over.. so maybe tmr or wad then come.. that made my dae worse.. hahaha not reallie lahz.. luckily got leon to talk to.. =) cos he also didnt go school.. or not i would have juz died there

returned from hong kong

2005-03-18T18:40:00.000+08:00

i'm back! =) and im so bored now.. i wish i can juz fly back to hong kong.. i'm dying of heat now cos i'm currently not acclimatized yet.. the tempertaure in hong kong was like below 10 degrees celcius and i was wrapped up till i looked reallie fat lol.. actuallie not reallie lahz wahahaax.. and i didnt dare to bathe.. cos it was soo cold LOL.. but of cos i bathed in the end.. then everydae also eat chinese food one lol.. but of cos, i didnt eat much lahz.. walao in one restaurant they sell blood and dunno wad tongue and pEeG's bRaIn lorz.. omg.. i see ready feel like puking.. so thats one of the reasons why i didnt eat haha.. then my auntie sae im fussy with food.. pls lorz.. who would eat tongues and brains.. had fun speaking pure cantonese tho hahaha.. in singapore alwaes speak broken cantonese one.. erm cantonese mixed with english.. then go hk nvr speak english.. woots.. oh ya then met lincoln they all.. he lost his hp on the taxi also hahaha.. juz like me.. met kai ye and kai ma also.. then hug them.. talk talk talk.. then go back to the hotel.. cannot stae in the hotel for long one.. cos will get dragged out by my parents.. they want to go shopping.. then they bought soo mani things lorz.. will normally return to the hotel at 11 or 12.. then it would be damn boring.. so i watched alot of teevee lol.. cantonese shows are veri nice lorz.. and took alot of pics with lincoln also.. oh ya.. i slept in between my parents every night =) wahahaax.. im such a beeg lamp post.. we took the train to shenzhen.. play play play.. then took the train back to hk.. shenzhen was so much colder than hk lorz gosh.. erm overall.. fun lahz.. though i missed leon soo much lol.. and i still do..

holidae~

2005-03-12T22:42:00.000+08:00

leaving tmr morning le.. coming back after 1 week.. erm should be lahz lol.. i asked my mummie when will we be coming back and she replied, "come back then u noe ready lorz" hahaha.. will surely miss leon like crazee one.. cannot talk for 1 week.. cannot smell him for 1 week lol.. wow.. ahh~

fear and more fear

2005-03-11T23:32:00.000+08:00

im soo scared.. afraid that history might repeat itself.. that something would happen while one party is awae.. again.. aiya wadeva.. wads wrong with me lorz.. alwaes so paranoid over everything.. but maybe i ought to.. ahh i dunno.. i might juz die in hong kong.. yea lahz juz as well.. who cares lorz..

dumdum

2005-03-11T20:42:00.000+08:00

A horse named Harvey Highersoup was hiking up the hill
And then he met a halibut who went to Honkerville
He had to play harmonica, and honked another horn
So they hooted and they honked until the night became the morn

There once was a king from Kalamazoo
Who had a kicky kangaroo Now the kindly kangaroo named Kay
Played a keen kazoo both night and day
'Twas the kind of kazoo that went koo-koo
Koo-Koo went Kay's kazoo
And when the kindly king of Kalamazoo saw Kay the kangaroo's kazoo
He said right here in Kalamazoo,
we'll build a zoo for a kangaroo

i'm juz bored.. and i'm juz jealous again.. all my stupid drastic mood swings fault

in good company

2005-03-11T19:32:00.000+08:00

school ended early todae.. again.. cos of the good o'level results.. is it? yea think so lol.. then went out with joanne and joycelyn.. watched another movie this week.. in good company.. but not fun one hahaha.. cos the part that we were looking forward to.. they go and cut off muahaha.. it was soo cold also.. plus the cinema was so freaky.. cos there were less than 10 pple inside.. and so quiet.. but we were laughing the whole time cos we were juz feeling tickly.. so long since i laughed like that.. until they called me noisy.. dots =/ im not lorz lol.. then took lots of neoprints again.. as usual.. its like an addiction now.. then joanne came over.. ate, and went home hahha

went out with joanne yesterdae too.. went to parkwae.. then we like spent and wasted some time there.. btw.. joanne is making me a peeg.. then she came over.. made some cards for the sesame street troop lol.. then we called joyce over too.. yea then after she went home hahaha..

on wednesdae.. i went out with khia peng.. to watch another movie lol.. series of unfortunate events.. i dunno where all my time come from.. haha.. aniwae im leaving on sunday morning.. early early in the morning.. and arent i happie.. lol.. long time nvr update the dae liaoz.. so its the 419th dae =)

lit hw essay

2005-03-08T23:00:00.000+08:00

haven't done my lit homework! i'm done for.. cannot sleep tonight again.. have to like answer questions and write an essay thingie.. on the poem 'decomposition'.. gosh dunno how to do~

and we are going to be screwed by puja dada tmr.. my group nvr hand in the script.. i think we are the onli group in class that havent hand in.. hope she doesnt pms =D lol

series of unfortunate events

2005-03-08T21:29:00.000+08:00

i was in a good mood after school todae.. and i made this conclusion lol.. if i'm slacking during the last 2 periods of the dae.. i would be in a good mood and be hyperactive.. whereas if i'm hardworking and like paying attention during the last 2 periods.. i would be in a relatively bad mood.. gloomy and irritable.. therefore its better to slack =D hahaha esp when my mood swings can be as disastrous as the tsunami waves lol

i can say i'm a full-time slacker cos i'm pon-ing everything.. and going out practically every single dae.. today, i went to watch a movie with khia peng.. series of unfortunate events.. erm expected it to be farnie but it turned out to be rather sadistic haha..

not going for dumb assembly tmr lol.. leaving school at 1.. yay
oh btw.. there are 2 new members in the sesame street gang of 3f.. sylvianne as snuffleupagus and justin as bert hahahaa.. home-wrecker~ sylvianne resembles snuffleupagus wahahaax! =x

hurtful

2005-03-07T22:10:00.000+08:00

juz suddenly recalled.. when my korkor(jian) talked to me abt it.. i've hurt alot of pple before.. omg and i'm like so guilty.. SORRIE~!! esp last year i think.. its like.. i didn't noe wad i was doing lorz.. i was soo stupid.. sorrie sorrie sorrie.. esp to one person.. shan't reveal who.. but when jian rui told me abt it.. it kinda pricked my guilty conscience.. cos he said that he was veri sad.. but nvm hes happie now.. and i noe i am too =) i'm veri happie.. with wad i have.. lol.. juz that we aren't good frens animore.. like before.. so yea.. all results from my stupid actions.. oh well.. wads over is over.. =) cheers

2005-03-07T20:11:00.000+08:00

Rubber Ducky, you're the one,
You make bath time lots of fun,
Rubber Ducky, I'm awfully fond of you;
(woh woh bee doh)

Rubber Ducky, joy of joys,
When I squeeze you, you make noise!
Rubber Ducky, you're my very best friend, it's true!
(doo doo doo doooo, doo doo)

CHORUS: Every day when I
Make my way to the tubby
I find a little fella who's
Cute and yellow and chubby
(rub-a-dub-dubby!)

Rubber Ducky, you're so fine
And I'm lucky that you're mine
Rubber ducky, I'm awefully fond of you.

Rubber Ducky, you're so fine
And I'm lucky that you're mine
Rubber ducky, I'm awefully fond of...
Rubber ducky, I'd like a whole pond of...
Rubber ducky, I'm awefully fond of you!
(doo doo, be doo.)
*quack quack*

this is the whole version wahahaax.. i love rubberduckie! erm which is myself.. lol =))

nice table top =)

2005-03-07T19:48:00.000+08:00

i seriously think my table top can freak pple out.. not the look of it.. but the things that i write on it.. all the hurtful stuff wahahaax.. so pple who offend me.. ur sure to find ur name on my table top.. so it'll be advisable of cos to stae clear of it.. and i admit i was kinda harsh todae lol.. but who cares.. that person is a criminal.. u can see me diligently doing my work at one moment.. and the next, i'm scribbling on the table again haha.. i wasnt myself also lehz.. cos i like scolded alot of not veri nice words =x oops.. that wasnt me that wasnt me lol.. wadeva.. i hate u~ aaahh stupid dog..

kfc

2005-03-07T19:12:00.000+08:00

went to kfc todae.. with weirong and nazim and his frens.. erm one from 3c and one from 3g one.. haha.. then later isaac came and joined us.. we talked till about erm.. 4-5? around there lahz.. then went home.. yay i got to noe of morree things wahahaax..

i wanna go out tmr!! lol.. but dunno who to go with.. joanne, khia peng, marc or weirong.. hMm~ hahaha.. tmr then see how lahz.. 6 more daes to leaving singapore.. gosh why am i so eager to lol..

rubbaduckie

2005-03-07T19:01:00.000+08:00

my class has the sesame street gang.. joanne is elmo.. weirong is beeg bird.. joyce is ernie and i'm her rubberduckie! wahahaax.. there are some songs decicated to me too..

Rubber Duckie, joy of joys
When I squeeze you, you make noise
Rubber Duckie you're my very best friend, it's true

but i edited it.. and changed the 'joys' to 'joyce'.. oh there's another one

Rubber Duckie
ur e one
u make bath times, lots of fun!

LOL see that?! i make bath times lot of fun.. wahahahhahax.. beat that..
yeayea i noe its sounds kinda sick.. but no choice.. i'm a rubberduckie haha
and i'm so honored to have those wonderful duckie songs made mine..
Ernie, you giggly orange prick!! lol

i'm juz off the phone with joanne.. and now we're online quarrelling abt who's cuter.. ain't it obvious enough.. lol.. elmo's nose is too humungous and hideous.. unlike rubberduckie.. its simply perfect =D

howl's moving castle

2005-03-06T11:30:00.000+08:00

went to orchard with evelyn ytd.. supposed to go out with weirong and someone else actuallie.. but he couldnt make it.. yea so we watched howl's moving castle at cineleisure.. NiCe =) veri veri veri.. after that we went to heeren to erm walk lol.. and todae also supposed to go with marc to celebrate his burfdae.. but.. postponed.. yea so so sorrie.. so to marc.. happie burfdae!! hahaha

and guez wad? i'm getting a new doggie lol.. i think its time i can accept another dog.. aniwae its been 2 yrs alreadi.. shan't brood over it animore.. hmm.. yea so i'll treat him like my firz doggie.. haha.. erm getting a golden retriever puppie.. and when it grows older.. it'll be beeger than me wahahaax.. so cool.. the previous doggie.. can hug to sleep.. dunno if this one can not lol.. kkaes cheers~ =)

going for tuition later.. at 1 =/

gastritis.. road run..? lol

2005-03-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

school ended at 1110 todae.. cos had road run.. so juz had lit, emaths and amaths lesson.. no more le.. we got our lit and social studies paper back todae.. and i failed lit!! omg.. got 11.5/25.. but i passed my ss lol.. 16/26 which was quite a surprise.. cos all the answers i like anyhow write one lol.. after school.. went bugis with weirong then marc met us there later.. cos he wanted to go home firz.. yea then we took plenti of neopwintz.. todae reallie reallie took alot lorz.. haha but was fun.. then we took cab to east coast park for road run.. dumb thing lorz.. make me run and have my gastritis pains again.. urghx.. horrible.. every year also like that.. so in conclusion.. next year wun be an exception.. so that means next year also no hope le.. dun want to suffer so i think i'd juz walk lol.. yea but no need to worry wahahaax.. cos my cure soon came.. then erm everything was almoz alrite lahz lol.. x)

field trip

2005-03-02T22:54:00.000+08:00

omg.. i failed one subject.. the test papers i've got back, so far: maths, amaths, geog elect, chinese, physics.. and i failed geog elect.. by 3 marks.. and it wun be a surprise if i fail social studies too.. so i guez i'm going to fail combined humanities =(
and ivan said he saw dunno wad thing.. and i got into top 20 for combined science?? NO! cAn'T bE.. something muz have gone wrong somewhere..
erm.. todae was as usual.. but assembly period was kinda amusing though.. cos we had the indian dance thingie.. imagine.. lol.. oh then after that.. went for field trip.. for geog elect students.. went to the hydroponics farm haha.. which i reckoned wouldn't be veri fun and it wasnt lol..
aniwae.. 3f makes lessons so fun =)) i think i'd be falling alseep during lessons if i wasnt in 3f.. haha.. oh and our favourite birthdae song marathons LOL.. cheers.. oh and to end this post.. joanne has a beeg and itchy butt full of fleas and ticks.. wahahahaax.. look joanne.. i'm so much nicer.. didnt enlarge the font hahaha

woops.. heh

2005-02-27T21:07:00.001+08:00

i went out with mummie todae.. see im such a good girl.. wahahaax.. went with her to orchard.. taka.. actuallie wanted to take neopwints todae.. but decided not to.. we will go hong kong and take.. cos daddie would be there to take with us too =)) i'm in a generallie good mood todae.. no mood swings lol..
ooh.. and have to hand in the literature script tmr.. and the scene is quite long lorz.. gosh i'm so dead.. guez i'd have to stae up tonight le.. SiTi~ kinda my fault actuallie.. cos they wanted to come over and do but i wasnt home =/.. sorrie sorrie.. lol
i muz make sure that i'm in a good mood tmr too.. cos some test papers would be returned tmr.. and if i'm in a bad mood.. omg.. wahahaax =x
okokiez.. i go be in the company of my mummie and daddie le.. lol cheers

ps khong.. u rock!

2005-02-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

im back.. miss me? wahahaax.. juz returned home.. went out with the cell grp to support pastor khong.. woots~ he was soo good lorz lol.. pastor khong rox! haha.. yea so i kinda had fun todae.. ooh but my finger is bleeding and painful =( and i'm so paranoid over it.. *pout pout pout* wahahaax.. oh ya i learnt something todae.. things may not be wad they seem.. lol kkaes.. i go watch teevee liaoz =p

ahrtzz haha

2005-02-24T22:03:00.000+08:00

yay common test is over =)) lol.. erm todae was one boring dae.. cos it was a usual school dae.. ehh i watched a ghost movie todae lehz.. white noise.. cant believe it.. i would freak out when pple juz sae out the word 'ghost'.. but i actuallie watched the movie todae wahahaax.. okok fine.. i didnt reallie watch it lahz.. i was hiding behind my bag moz of the time lol.. but it was still scaree k.. yea.. erm went with siti, ming bei and marc.. and i think.. in the cinema.. we were like a nuisance cos we were making soo much noise haha.. and we kept changing places.. firz, marc go sit at the aisle cos bei was scared lol.. then leaving siti alone on the other side with no light.. then marc changed place with siti.. i think the pple hated us haha.. erm after that.. we went to take neopwints.. mani mani of them lol.. then walk walk walk then go home.. oh ya and our veri own personalised word 'ahRtzz'.. woots wahahaax.. 404 dae

mugging

2005-02-23T20:59:00.000+08:00

okok.. see i update liaoz lol.. and jill.. i nvr come online cos now have common test and i've been busy mugging awae at home lorz.. not like u dunno me.. soo hardworking.. wahahah -like real- .. kkaes erm todae did lit and chem test.. chemistry is okok lahz.. but lit.. oMg lorz.. i think i would get a single digit for my marks.. cos everything i wrote was all nonsense.. and tmr is the laz dae of the common test =) finallie haha.. i dun want to mug like that.. can go crazee one lol.. tmr is err.. chinese and amaths.. for amaths.. good luck to me.. cos in my secondary school history.. i nvr seemed to have passed maths.. ok lahz.. there were a few exceptions.. once or twice onli.. and that was emaths.. let alone amaths.. so im juz so dead.. ok lahz.. i go practise le.. ltr tuition teacher call me =/

back

2005-02-18T12:03:00.000+08:00

okiez.. im back from dai pak's house.. juz now was at the playground looking at stars with my cousin.. love stars =) lol.. look look look until we found out that it was getting late haha.. not looking forward to going to school tmr.. cos there's a lit presentation.. aniwae.. i guez life rocks.. the 398th dae

visting again

2005-02-17T17:18:00.000+08:00

daddie juz msged me and korkor to keep ourselves free cos we're going to dai pak's place tonite.. still muz visit lehz.. sianz.. cos ee pak going tonite.. and daddie wants to go with them.. ehh actuallie no need to complain lol.. cos dai pak lives in bedok court too.. wahahaax.. yay good thing they've moved in haha.. oh and i've decided not to studie lol.. no mood lahz cant blame me.. maybe ltr lol.. now.. i'll go plae =p

wth lahz..

2005-02-17T16:55:00.000+08:00

can everyone juz stop telling me stuff abt him.. then at least i can be happier.. i dun care whether u see it or not.. as long as i dun.. i dun care.. but if i do then.. thats a different story.. i have to hear this kind of thing everydae and different perceptions.. eee.. i wanna become deaf.. khalis and luke told me something todae.. and i told siti.. then she said she also saw the same thing.. juz that she didnt want to tell me so that i wun be sad.. and adi said i was sensitive.. pout lol.. oh btw adi=ayadi haha.. ok nvm nvm.. i already told homing that i can control.. so thats wad i'll do.. so everything is erased from my memory and nothing has happened todae.. lalala~ erm ok.. at leaz i tried.. =/

mrs tey returned our chem test papers.. and i passed =) and i passed my combined sci test.. yay lol.. ok so i guez i'll pass everything.. erm maths is an exception haha..then after that.. got ting xie.. cannot get full marks le lahz.. sad.. but i noe wun fail ting xie de lol.. cos i nvr fail one and i make it a point not to.. haha.. then it was english.. and that was when i got to noe of the thing todae.. and then lit.. i passed my lit too x) and my results werent bad k.. wahahaax.. wadeva.. juz encouraging myself.. aiya im supposed to studie now.. but wad am i doing.. lol.. common test is.. next week! aiyo.. so scaree.. kkaes i go try to studie le.. lol

?

2005-02-15T18:35:00.000+08:00

wth am i doing.................

yay

2005-02-13T23:26:00.000+08:00

juz returned home.. from uncle's place.. cos go bai bai.. erm erm then.. now im at home wondering wad to do LOL.. then me and korkor wore our caps that we bought for each other wahahax.. he bought for me one roxy thingie and i bought for him a quiksilver thingie lol.. then we wore it together aT nItE.. woots hahaha.. then pple were like looking at us and wondering why we were wearing caps at nite.. we like mahz.. cannot arhz haah.. ya then on the wae back home.. daddie talked to us abt character inheritance.. interesting cos i found out that my great grandmummie was a millioniare but died a pauper.. aww so sad rite.. and alot of other nonsense lahz.. then he sae he come from a veri slack familee.. but luckily my mummie from a more disciplined one.. so we are still safe haha.. wadeva lol.. dun care dun care.. i dun feel like going to school tmr anymore.. aiyok..

mosquitos.. arghx

2005-02-13T00:46:00.000+08:00

wow i actuallie have the time to blog.. lol.. i have been hugging mosquitos all this while.. mosquitos love me.. but i dun.. so shoo.. all that jill's fault.. they found that my blood is sweeter than hers then they come and chase me lol.. erm ok.. so apparently im having difficulty typing at the moment cos i have bites on my finger too.. see.. they juz lOvE me dun they.. theres already 4 bites within 4cm of my hand.. how bad can it get.. gosh..

lol aniwae.. i've been out todae.. went with miaoying and nisha.. firz went to ps.. until we were tired of that place.. then we proceeded to bugis lol.. we juz had to go there.. if not something wud not feel rite.. cos we alwaes go to bugis haha.. after that we went to parkwae.. but nisha went home from bugis.. so she didnt join us.. erm ya then went home at 9 plus.. almoz 10.. im juz soo bored lol.. and at leaz there werent any irritating flying monsters there..

since i came online.. i've been writing testimonials for everyone.. cos they've been writing for me and i havent been replying lol.. so now i've done my fair share.. yay haha.. im so bored and so tired.. and i feel so itchy.. if onli i have more hands.. to relieve the itch LOL.. okok i'll go back to hugging my veri dear mosquitos =p

another fridae

2005-02-11T20:25:00.000+08:00

err todae.. is juz another fridae.. but todae no band x) this whole week and next week no band also.. yay haha.. rejoicing oops.. lol.. oh and actuallie we were allowed to noe our lit test marks todae.. after the lit lecture, we were supposed to go and find out our marks from ms puja.. but siti, marc and i were too scared.. lol cos scared ltr fail then spoil our dae.. yea so we decided not to noe our results and then left the audi.. after which was emaths then amaths lecture.. i didnt understand the topic.. haha and thats predictable.. so i wasnt like surprised or anything.. todae went past quite quickly actuallie.. so faz that i can barely even recall wad i did todae.. haha.. so ya there was chinese and social studies.. but who cares abt social studies lol.. that 2 periods are like slacking periods.. cos no one listens in class and everyone is playing haha.. erm after school.. went out with huiping, huijin and miao ying.. forced to again? yea kinda.. i didnt feel like going initially.. cos i wasnt in a veri good mood.. i mean, wads new.. lol.. but gave in in the end.. oh ya.. and im supposed to be at marc's house now.. but im not =x lol.. kp's going to kill me.. but who cares.. cos she already has someone to accompany her.. she should be fine there.. ya.. so sorrie.. for turning u all down..

to do..??

2005-02-10T21:41:00.000+08:00

okiez.. i've already told ivan that im sure i would not explode anymore.. i hope so.. talked to homing before i slept laz nite also.. he kinda advised me.. but.. i've still decided on leaving things as they are.. like nothing has happened.. yea maybe nothing has reallie happened.. so i hope things are normal and can go back to how they were.. can they? i think i did something reallie stupid.. i shouldnt have exploded at all.. now i think our relationship is affected.. i think.. is it?? i dunno.. but hope not.. oh and as for the letter.. i think i would tear it.. throwing it awae.. dun see why i should keep it.. unless i want to remind myself.. which is a nono.. and i dun think i'd want anyone to read it too.. ya so.. its going to be destroyed.. hmm.. but can i bear to? haha.. cos even reading it over can make me tear again.. strange thing.. lol.. eh there's this weird thing called self-indulgence lol.. juz learnt abt it.. haha kkz.. aniwae i cant wait for the march hols to come.. cos i'd be going back to hong kong.. yay lol.. so long nvr go back le.. can go plae and see relatives =) but we'd be going to shenzhen firz then kowloon.. cant wait.. but the thing is.. i cant go for the band camp.. oh well.. dun think that matters haha.. dun think i can enter indoor also.. so... yupz.. cheers

cny

2005-02-10T20:17:00.000+08:00

cny.. did the same old stuff.. in the morning.. cousins would come.. then we would go to our anuty's house together.. erm my daddie's cousin's place.. after that go bai bai yeye then go dunbar walk.. same things every yr.. firz we went to roseburn ave to see our 3 lao gous lol.. then go greenfield drive to see uncle doctor haha.. spent our like whole afternoon there then went serangoon.. after which we could finallie go home.. soo tiring lorz.. dun reallie like cny.. came home with cousins and we played sparklers downstairs haha.. wad we would alwaes do when we were young.. ok that was the firz dae of cny.. as for todae.. we went uncle ronnie's hse firz then aunty florence place.. same procedure sian sian sianz.. then come home.. and slp haha.. till now.. im a beeg peeg lol.. ehh i expected myself to gain back the weight that i lost these few daes.. but didnt!! haiyo.. why arhz.. dunno lol.. ya lahz actuallie also havent been eating.. yea so thats why.. so aniwae.. its the 390 dae.. cheers.. have to go back to school tmr..

doggie

2005-02-10T01:56:00.000+08:00

valentines dae is next mondae.. so faz.. and thats the dae that my doggie left me.. still havent gotten over it.. it has been 2 yrs.. I MISS IT.. soo much.. 14 feb.. is its death anniversary.. my pomeranian would be in my memory and i believe my family's memory forever too.. rmb the times when my parents would lock my doggie outside.. then i'd wait for them to fall aslp before smuggling my doggie back in to slp with me.. aahhh~ fond memories.. miss doggie =/ lol

poem..?

2005-02-09T22:46:00.000+08:00

I just hope to sleep
And never awaken
Nothing left in this world
Could replace what you have taken....

bad dae

2005-02-08T22:36:00.000+08:00

its chinese new yr's eve.. todae had erm half dae sch.. which was like super boring.. and i dun see why we even had to go to sch in this case.. nvm nvm.. wasnt in veri high spirits.. ok in fact.. i was in veri low spirits.. until yar and jin made me go out with them.. i guez i kinda cheered up after that.. i have a new bf ready.. huijin LOL.. nah lahz.. who would want to be lorz.. she was juz cheering me up..

i dun want to tell him wad happened.. cos i dunno how to.. and everytime i see him.. i alwaes cant seem to sae it all out.. why why.. soo.. i wrote everything down ready.. in a letter format? maybe.. dunno if should let him read not.. nopez maybe not lahz.. see how.. i dunno i dunno.. dunno if i should or not.. but i'd feel so.... oh ya.. anyway during lesson ytd.. i like vandalised my whole tk organiser with my feelings lol.. pity my organiser.. then ryan took and read it and was like wow.. haha.. cos i couldnt concentrate in class.. so wad else could i do...

okok.. my relatives.. my cousins are all outside.. but i dun seem to care lol.. this yr's chinese new yr is not fun at all.. not even in the mood to go visiting.. sianzation.. haiya all i have to do is stop thinking.. so i'll try.. erm erm erm.. its the 388th dae.. cheers? not...

2005-02-06T23:10:00.000+08:00

why cant everything juz end.. why are things accumulating.. go awae.. hate everything.. and u....

wth..

2005-02-06T20:43:00.000+08:00

todae was such a nice dae.. WAS.. after tuition.. i went to meet kp.. cos she said she wanted to.. then we talk talk talk walk walk walk.. until 7 plus.. so actuallie.. todae was a nice a happie dae.. WAS again.. till now.. now now now.. wadeva i dun care le.. why should i rite.. i dun want to stae online anymore.. signing off...

stress..

2005-02-04T23:47:00.000+08:00

stress stress stress.. can everybody stop contributing in their part to give me stress.. all accumulating liaoz.. im gonna die.. i feel like dying.. urghx.. plus my eyes are like soo painful.. dunno why.. for so long le.. feel like closing my eyes and then dun have to ever open them again..

dunno..

2005-02-04T22:35:00.000+08:00

this week.. was not veri fun.. didnt go band todae.. all the band members in my class all planned not to go band.. so.. ok lorz.. then went to ps with siti and em.. oh ya.. todae supposed to present or teach the class the lit thingy in the audi.. but lucky wasnt our turn so quickly.. so we are doing next week.. moreover we werent ready todae.. then siti weirong and i were like soo scared.. then ok that was over.. then went to class to take emaths test.. one word.. fAiL.. aiya my maths sux wad.. not my fault.. then the amaths lecture blah blahz.. after recess got chinese.. but lucky one period onli lol.. but still veri boring.. then kes and i were like sticking our tongues out LOL.. bleahz.. ya! and i passed my social studies.. haha which means.. i pass my combine humans.. got 15.5/25.. okok lahz.. but during social studies lesson.. we dun listen one.. we juz talk and talk and talk and plae plae lol.. then that nazim and ryan go write on my bare table.. sae wad.. "i love melissa" then sign off with their name.. see my class is so lame haha.. ooh and now our class like got a trademark of wishing each other gd luck de.. but veri stupid lahz lol.. so i wun elaborate.. yea thats abt all for todae..

jillian and weijie they all have been asking me to go back to naps during cny eve.. even zhang also going back lehz.. all those pple whom i dun expect to go back are going back.. so i dunno.. i dun feel like going.. i dun want to go.. but if i dun go.. wad can i do.. lol *pondering*

erm erm.. this whole week.. nvr meet up with leon.. sad? ya i guez so.. but cant be helped cos got alot of tests and cca.. so nvm lorz.. ehh and doesnt mean i dun sae hi means i dun like u lehz lol.. i dun like saying hi de.. pple sae hi to me.. i nvr ever reply them one haha.. ya i dao rite.. wadeva lol.. love u.. 384 dae

scared..

2005-02-02T20:50:00.000+08:00

my parents want to bring me to see the eye doctor.. cos theres something wrong.. so scared.. scared....... sobs

bad dae? maybe..

2005-02-02T20:17:00.000+08:00

i hate me.. i hate myself.. dunno wad to do with myself.. so tired le.. i hope i wasnt born so sensitive.. over-sensitive.. if onli i was born unemotional.. someone that's heartless and cold.. so much nicer.. then i would be so so much happier.. then i wudnt have to feel how im feeling everydae.. nvm nvm.. thats juz me.. wad can i do..

ok.. todae got back the geog elect test paper.. i passed! woots.. 8.5/13.. at least i passed.. so dun have to go for remedial.. then after school.. waited for khia peng.. for her lesson to finish.. and at the same time.. accompanied rei as she studied for her test.. after that went to bugis with kp cos she wanted to buy new year clothes.. im scared.. im so scared.. i dun dare to look at him.. arghx.. i didnt dare to look at him.. cos i wasnt reallie happie.. cos i felt the feeling that i hated moz in the morning.. i dunno i dunno dunno.. aniwae.. its the 382 dae..

sweet? lol

2005-01-30T22:57:00.000+08:00

eh.. before i met u.. i nvr knew wad it was like to look at someone and smile for no reason.. x) 379 daes

spoilt comp

2005-01-30T22:55:00.000+08:00

fell aslp quite early laz nite.. cos the comp in my room dun fren me.. lol nahz.. cos it was spoilt laz nite.. cos i nvr ever switched it off.. so its having its retribution.. haha ya lahz.. its my fault.. but nvm.. yup so i soon fell aslp cos there was nthg to do.. then woke up kinda late this morning.. so had plenty of slp.. which i needed actuallie.. since i am sTiLl sick.. so annoying.. after that i went for tuition at 12.. amaths is so.. omg.. haha then came home and.. hehee.. wahahah kkz.. yep so i guez life is fine.. and have to go back to school tmr =/.. ok thats tmr.. i have to think of wad to do now.. cos i am bored to death lol..

lurve

2005-01-30T21:59:00.000+08:00

onli love can hurt ur heart..
fill u with desire and tear u apart..
onli love can make u cry
and onli love noes why..
if ur not ready to cry..
if ur not ready to take the risk..
if ur not ready to feel the pain..
then ur not ready to fall in love

there was a time in our lives..
when we became afraid to fall in love..
everytime we do, we get hurt..
then i figured out..
thats why its called falling in love

hais

2005-01-27T21:05:00.000+08:00

arghx not nice not nice.. im sick and irritated and angry and frustrated and moody.. this morning daddie sae eat medicine.. so i eat.. but i didnt even get better lorz.. instead i became so drowsy.. God bless me.. i want to get well.. tmr got lit test.. how to studie hais.. i cant breathe i cant talk.. omg i feel like dying.. help me...

geog test

2005-01-27T00:18:00.000+08:00

had geog elect test todae.. considered quite easy lahz.. but i still might not do well.. erm overall.. todae was fun.. class was noisy as usual.. ooh and i like the dental checkups lehs.. can slack haha.. ytd weirong, justin, ayadi and i went for the thingie then we juz slack slack like hell.. can miss english lesson so fun lol.. but now no more le =( haha.. feel so physically exhausted.. body veri pain.. think its cos of the 2.4 thing.. shud be lahz.. i deprove soo much lorz omg.. so sad.. yea then after the test.. went to bugis with siti.. met fuji there then talk talk for a while.. lol.. he said he wud go back to tk another dae.. then todae's assembly got the sex education nonsense.. then the whole dae.. siti was counting down to that period lorz gawdz lol.. then the period before was geog.. she was so slpy until the teacher said tt it was 5 mins to the end of the lesson.. she straight awae wake up lorz.. wahahah so farnie.. hmm now i dunno whether life rox of sux.. maybe both.. fridae got lit test.. veri scared.. hope i dun fail.. ooh and i juz drank one cup of bitter crap.. forced to.. being sick is not fun man.. sux~ k i go rez le.. nite nitez.. the 376th dae

374

2005-01-25T23:01:00.000+08:00

its the 374th dae....

sorrie..

2005-01-25T22:52:00.000+08:00

LiFe SaRkS.. and.. sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie sorrie.. duno wads wrong with me lahz.. theres something wrong with me.. juz dunno wad.. im stupid lahz.. wadeva.. dunno dunno dunno.. everything's juz wrong..

jealous

2005-01-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

im jealous jealous jealous.. sooo jealous.. sobs =(

bleahz

2005-01-23T00:42:00.000+08:00

nono.. pls dun be intimidated by that previous post.. that was juz for one notti notti boi.. hmmph! dunno how im feeling now.. later too shy how.. see lahz! urghx.. kkz aniwae.. had band todae.. played the same 2 concert pieces.. firestorm and singapore rhapsody.. the ad hoc committee would be officially announced next week too.. everyone's curious lol.. then after band.. went to parkwae with huiping.. guez wad.. we plan to buy peegs lol.. oink oinkz.. eee not fun le.. now cannot write alot of things here anymore.. cos got someone peeping.. bish! want to sae wad i planned to buy for valentine's dae but.. aiyok.. nvm.. oh ya i have 3 long long essays to write.. literature.. have to hand in on mondae lehz.. die liaoz le.. wanted to write tonite but.. heex im soo lazee haha.. so forget it.. tmr then stae up and rush through.. see im such a bad student.. tmr going out with the usual 5 of us.. the sec3 trumpets.. and tt crazee huiping sae want to go tiong bahru plaza.. gawdz.. ya so aniwae.. its the 372nd dae ready.. chillz..

HMMPH

2005-01-22T23:50:00.000+08:00

NOTTI!! DUN READ MY BLOGGIE~ SOBS..

should i or not?

2005-01-22T23:23:00.000+08:00

online talking to him now.. i think hes kinda pissed lehz.. how? cos i dun want to tell him my url.. too shy le.. should i or should i not.. *pondering*

=pPp

2005-01-21T13:35:00.000+08:00

370 daes x)

yay..

2005-01-20T00:02:00.000+08:00

okiez.. the 369th dae liaoz.. *announcing* wakakas =x

quote

2005-01-18T23:34:00.000+08:00

+ Last night, i matched each star with a reason for loving u.
I was doing great.. until i ran out of stars.. love u x) +

sianzation

2005-01-18T23:26:00.000+08:00

lessons arent fun anymore.. lol.. so monotonous.. and all the tests are charging in together.. stRess~ arghx muz study study le.. todae had the oral enrichment class with mdm faridah.. with weirong, chang ling, winyee, miao ying and erlina.. quite fun lahz actuallie haha.. cos it was a rather small grp consisting of 6 pple.. and held in the library somemore.. shuang hehee.. yup so maybe that was the bez thing todae.. lol kidding.. nowadaes my class also getting noisier and noisier but veri fun! woots~ 3f rox lehs haha.. so kewl lorz.. we all so noisy.. starting to like it more and more heex.. ya then after school.. leon came to my class and passed me something.. a necklace.. shud be becos of the 1 yr anniversary thing lahz.. erm i think? haha shud be lol.. blur me =? its a necklace with a cross pendant.. cute lol.. and ivan claimed that it was chosen by him.. cos he went with leon to buy haha.. maybe bahz.. leon and i agreed that we wud meet on all our free daes to study together.. which by rite shud be mondae, wednesdae, thursdae and fridae lol.. but he dun want to study on fridae cos its relaxation dae haha.. according to him.. erm yup so im loving life =) oh ya! tmr got social studies test lol.. gawdz am i speaking too soon? no rite? hehee.. kkaes im still loving life.. lol cHeers

something

2005-01-18T00:10:00.000+08:00

*with adorations, fertile tears,
with groans that thunder love, with sighs of fire*

one yr and one dae

2005-01-18T00:04:00.000+08:00

woohoo~ one year and one dae le ahha.. veri long ready kaes.. we've been together for that long and hes liked me for 2 yrs.. not bad huhz.. tho we went thro quite alot in between.. but well.. wad matters is now nOw hehee.. im kinda loving life now lol.. even the homework? ya maybe.. haha.. LiFe RaWkz! *367 daes*

yAy!

2005-01-16T12:01:00.000+08:00

yay yay yay!! yiPee~ woots~ lol.. its our 1 yr anniversary le.. wakakas so happie.. its 12 midnite.. 1 YR LE LEHZ! hehee.. im on the top of the werld wahah -.-

countingdown..

2005-01-14T23:12:00.000+08:00

2 DAES LEFT TO GO.. i can do it! i can wait patiently lol.. can i? wEe~

=)

2005-01-14T23:05:00.000+08:00

todae's lessons were so-so.. abit boring lahz actuallie.. so good thing that there was lit todae.. then after school went for band.. plae plae plae.. we would be knowing if we are playing in indoor competition or not.. i veri scared lehz.. i want to.. but dun think i can get in cos i dun have the ability.. then have to be in the operational grp.. but i dun want! i want indoor experience.. this yr is the onli yr left le.. next yr is outdoor and have O's somemore.. *praying* lol.. band and soccer ended at the same time so i met leon at the bus stop.. saw him there with his frens so we juz smile smile haha.. juz finished talking to him online.. he went to sleep le.. i feel soo shuang hehee.. okiez i also go orh orh le.. nitEy =p

hehee

2005-01-13T22:37:00.000+08:00

3 DAES TO GO!! WOOTS~

sLy x)

2005-01-13T21:47:00.000+08:00

I Dream

In my mind
I can climb
All the mountains that surround me
My spirit's there, where eagles dare to fly

In my heart
There's a spark
That can light the world around me
An open door, where I am sure dreams are

It doesn't matter if I win
Or the colour of my skin
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself

And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that's in me
When I dream, I dream

If there's a time
In your life
When the odds are so against you
There's no defeat, if all you keep is pride
First or last
Slow or fast
There's a dignity that makes you
Keep driving on, when worlds have come apart

It doesn't matter rich or poor
Or the things you've done before
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself

And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that's in me
When I dream, I dream

I dream
Of a moment
That forever will be golden
When the torch is passed
Only dreams will last
That are shared by everyone

And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that's in me
When I dream, I dream
I dream of you ...

hey hey this is the sly one.. NOT the taufik one.. i so dun support him haha.. =x oops

oiNk oinkZz

2005-01-13T21:44:00.000+08:00

elo.. now i nvr blog as regularly le.. cos alwaes have a whole pile of homework to complete.. by the time i've finished.. i'll be so darned tired.. oh well no need to blog everydae also wakakas.. have to juggle my studies and band and leon.. need time management hais lol.. now studying in school is like kinda stressful.. cos im striving to get the bez results haha.. as in i hope to get all B's.. hopefully the lowest grade is juz a C.. but doubt so also lahz.. cos the firz term.. muz adapt lol.. might even keep failing.. like todaes amaths tropical quiz! oMg!! i reallie think i fail that test le.. soo difficult lehz.. im a dead peeg.. next week got social studies test also.. but i guess i've forgotten everything liaoz =x hahah.. ya! our chinese teacher.. shes the bez lehz.. simply the bez.. but at making pple sleep.. she whole lesson can juz talk and talk and talk abt things that are not in the textbook.. for a couple of periods lorz.. gawdz.. but nvm.. todae's chemistry enrichment lesson after school was super duper luper fun lehz.. we got to do experiments hehee.. kewlz.. my firz thot was that it would be boring.. but its not.. keke so nice =)

nowadaes nvr talk to leon le.. seldom see him also.. maybe if im lucky then.. will see abt 1 or 2 times lorz.. so sad rite sobs.. lol.. we nvr meet nvr talk nvr even sae hi.. so pathetic! ok lahz.. maybe hes busy bahz.. but whenever i see david and weirong together and baskhin and siti together.. i'd be like.. why like that why like that.. hey hey hey.. i thot i said that i would and should be contented.. now i think the onli wae we communicate is on msn lorz.. not even sms.. so poor thing lol.. baAa juz see when hes free and whether hes willing to meet me or not lahz.. willing then good.. not willing then too bad.. i dun care le..

heyLoz!

2005-01-11T12:06:00.000+08:00

juz finished writing my literature's diary entry.. our homework heex.. literature is sOo fun lorz.. we get to do fun stuff and studie shakespeare haha.. we have to write a diary entry on feelings.. how would u feel if the person u love did not love u back and how would u feel if the person u love, loves someone else and wad if he asks u to help him tell the person that he likes that he likes her.. wad wud u do.. lol fortunately i could write long enough.. abt one page bahz.. yup! hehee.. lit rox!! tmr got lit le.. and thurs and fri too! yipee~ i also dunno why i suddenly bocome so guai.. now i will do homework everydae.. sec 1 and 2 i nvr do homework de.. maybe now can concentrate better lol.. leon also does homework.. so happie =) we motivate each other.. good rite haha..

things with him are as usual.. nthg has changed so far and that should be a good thing lol.. things can be better but nahz.. i shant ask for too much.. im contented le.. as long as he cares and loves me.. heex.. i talk to him at night online everydae.. cos we are too busy in school.. nonopez not me actuallie.. its him.. so poor thing.. he has soccer training on mondae, wednesdae and fridaes.. and maths tuition on tuesdaes and saturdaes and sundaes.. saturdae also have swimming lesson.. so ke lian de.. but nvm lahz for his own good lol.. so we seldom have the chance to talk in school.. onli either on thursdaes or talk for a veri short while onli.. but at least better than nothing.. lolx i think i've become so sensible all of a sudden.. starting to accept and appreciate things more and more.. *pats myself* wakakas.. todae kept using the shakespeare lit quotes in the conversation.. he abit pissed hahaha.. not pissed lahz but blur wahah.. so pretend to be angry =x oops i didnt sae tt lol.. cute sia.. x) oh and im starting to like my class too.. tho i dun exactly love it yet.. but hope i do soon hehee.. cant be as much as i enjoyed 2h tho haha.. nthg can replace those memories lahz.. swEet~ lol! kkz nitenitex.. sLeeP tigHt *winkz* haha im mad tonite

2hHh~

2005-01-09T20:59:00.000+08:00

i like 3f.. my present class.. but i love 2h.. i simply love that class.. got feelings got gan qing le lol.. yup all the wonderful momeries.. all the nice pple and the imperious pple haha.. kidding.. everyone were great! aAhhh~ i miss 2h soo much.. i wanna go back but cant =/ lol im dreaming.. yep yep so to 2h peeps.. RoCk On!! love all of ya x)

yoZzie!

2005-01-09T20:54:00.000+08:00

wao this is the longest time l've not blogged haha.. 2 miserable daes.. but that alot to me.. see how impt my dear blog is to me lol.. im sweet-talking my blog =/ erm.. yesterdae went for band.. it was the sec 1s cca recruitment dae.. then we had to perform under the rotunda.. chin hian and kok keong was the bez lahz.. they went home straight after lunch.. noe wad for? tO sLeEp!! gawdz lol.. so cute sia they all.. then all the solos all left there.. all shi chun plae haha.. poor thing.. then i played the abba gold duet with him.. then after that we go promote our cca lol.. go pull pple.. or wad they called it 'catch fish' hmm then at the end of the dae.. we had 76 pple who were interested in band.. yeah yeah! haha.. ya then after band i went to eleta's house to join my cell group for dinner.. yup that was wad happened on saturdae.. nthg much actuallie.. now band practises are on the wednesdaes and saturdaes..

todae.. wake up and slack slack slack lol.. then do homework.. im so guai right haha.. yep yep i am.. soon after i went for tuition le.. study amaths.. so difficult lorz~ cant stand.. my puny brain cant hold on much longer.. its going to break down.. thats when i'll being a retard le.. somemore got soo much homework.. got emaths amaths social studies chinese literature.. aiyok firz week of school already like that.. im certainly not enjoying my firz week of school.. so lets juz see how the second week goes on.. hehx

leon rocks my socks =x.. haha.. dunno lahz.. he suddenly change back to his usual self.. treat me good and so sweet again.. thats why im happie.. totallie over the moon.. hmm i cant be this crazee over him lahz.. rite?? dunno.. lol.. aniwae its 1 week to our 1 yr aniversary.. i'll be countingdown this week.. hehee 1 yr lehz.. we've been through soo much this yr.. cHeers

hphp.. pls come back lol

2005-01-07T01:06:00.000+08:00

-to my handphone which has not returned-
pls come back.. its been a couple of daes and theres still no news of u.. i need ur msgs~ i miss them.. muz read everydae de.. arghx.. and my alarm clock and simply the clock!! the clock so important lorz..
to the person who has taken my beloved handphone: pls kindly return the handphone to me.. for one reason.. cos its mine! MINE.. if u have no money.. juz work harder to get one lahz.. now return my hp back to me! gawdz im insane.. truly went berserk le.. lol ok lahz.. juz that i miss my hp alot.. alrite SwEet DrEaMs~

huGx

2005-01-06T23:57:00.000+08:00

wEe~ he came to my class to meet me after school todae.. one of the happiest dae of my life.. wahaha nah lahz joking.. ya we spent some time at my classroom deciding wad to talk abt.. then we decided to leave my class and go somewhere else to decide.. hmm then we proceeded to the school gate.. LoL x) after taking a VeRi long time to decide and think of where to go.. we got fed up and juz went to the bus stop to sit down.. cos he complain muscle ache =/ .. sho weak horz lol no lahz.. cos yesterdae he got soccer training haha.. ok erm so we sat there.. talk talk talk while 4 or 5 buses went past lol.. then wang lao shi and ms puja walked towards the bus stop.. we want to run awae also cannot liaoz.. no time.. so no choice.. got seen by teachers lorz.. wang lao shi see us together then look at us with that kind of suspicious and weird stare haha.. then she talked to leon.. asked him how he was blah blahz.. ask him abt the operation all those nonsense.. then after she finish asking liaoz and turn to see if bus come liaoz.. so leon quickly turn to me and hinted to leave lol.. then he said byebye to wang lao shi.. then she go and sae 'wa ni men bu hui jia arhz.. siang qu na li' gawdz~ lol.. then we sneak awae and laugh laugh laugh.. and heaved a sigh of relieve heex.. we headed to the next bus stop next after.. the tkgs bus stop.. then sit there talk for abt 3 to 4 hours.. so fun.. im so happie.. =) at least we are finallie meeting up and talking after school.. at least he even bothers to come look me up.. actuallie he planned to talk awhile then go plae soccer with ivan they all.. but i say cannot =x oops.. am i veri mean.. cos todae is the onli dae he can plae street soccer but i dun allow.. hehee.. sowie lorz sowie sowie.. then he somemore sacrifice his slp for me.. he intended to have an afternoon nap.. but i also dun allow.. im soo evil lol.. but nvm he rested on me hahaha.. =p ook.. so overall.. todae was juz one damn happie dae.. cos he made my dae.. miss u

hmm.. school todae is fine.. getting quite woried tho.. sec 3 seems kinda tough.. hope i can cope lol.. abt the teachers arhz.. okok lahz.. there are some i like and a few that i dislike also.. i like my form teacher, ms puja.. at least shes nice for now haha.. the maths, physics, chem, geog teachers are ok lahz.. my english teacher is mdm faridah~ woots! the teacher who made me fail literature in sec 1 lol.. i still rmb lehz.. haiyok.. and our chinese teacher is the hod of chinese lorz.. omg thats juz pure luck *sarcastically* we all thot that we didnt have to do chinese holidae homework.. cos seniors said no need de.. then todae she come tell us that he to hand in tmr -_-" how to do finish sia..3 jian bao and 1 book review lehz.. whoa its impossible to complete in a night lahz.. judging from my own ability.. and the prob is i dun have any chinese newpaper.. but that matter settle liaoz.. xiang giving me his chinese newspaper tmr morning.. so rush thro lorz.. juz try haha.. ya im meeting weirong early tmr morning to do 2 jian bao onli.. tts all we plan to do lol..yup so thats abt all for my dae todae.. kewlz and interesting rite?? wakakas.. kkz i noe its not.. but who cares.. im soo happie.. lalalaa~ heex.. tatas

sticktome bear

2005-01-05T02:36:00.000+08:00

wads going on.. happie tho =)

2005-01-05T02:27:00.000+08:00

woots~ dear talked to me todae.. he said he loves me =/ why so suddenly? its like.. everything is changing back to how i wanted things to be.. is God helping me? God!! i love u too!! haha.. im juz so so soo happie.. so happie beyond words.. juz dunno how to explain how im feeling now.. so darn elated lorz.. izzit my determination? nahz.. cant be.. maybe its cos i talked to him abt it.. dunno lahz.. but since everything is nice again.. i dun care le hehee.. IM SO HAPPIE.. he lifted my spirits.. so much that i totallie forgot abt wad happened in the afternoon.. bleahz talk abt it later.. yeah so aniwae.. he said hi to me online.. and we began to chat abt peegs and him being handsome -.- he ownself praise himself de.. i didnt sae anything lol.. yup and hes watching soccer tonight so he went to bed quite early.. abt 11 bahz.. hes back to his sweet and rou ma self liaoz =D why arhz.. i kept asking myself.. tho hes been like this for the second time le.. but im still accepting him with open arms.. like as if nothing has happened before.. tho he made me so sad so hurt.. i dun seem to care juz after he tells me he cares.. weird me.. dunno why.. =)) im happie happie happie~ wEe!! lol okok.. haha

eh! DAMMIT~ after this thingie is over.. another one has to happen.. i LoSt My Hp!! shit lorz.. all his msgs inside all gone le.. i dun care abt the hp.. all i bother abt is the msgs.. aiyok.. crazee me.. after school, siti and i went to tampines mall.. we took a taxi.. specifically silver cab lol.. and i lost it in the cab i think.. if i rmb correctly hmm.. it dropped out of my pocket.. ya then i didnt noe wad to do lorz.. my mind went like completely balnk.. all i could sae was why why why haha.. then i decided to call my bro.. and he told me to call 100 to ask for the silver cab's number.. i called and they gave me the main office no. call liaoz and gave them siti's hp no. to contact.. but nvr!! hais.. my poor hp.. nvm.. i told my parents abt it and they scolded abit lahz.. then my mummie helped me to deactivate the line.. but got a replacement sim card heh.. now i pleading for a new hp lol.. lets hope so bahz.. haha like the movie 'a series of unfortunate events'.. its happening to me now? lol dunno..

so late liaoz.. i going to sleep le.. now so cold.. the weather abit gong gong haywire one.. ending of december then start raining like crazee.. start the monsoon rain liaoz lol.. kkz i go orh orh le.. GdNiTe~ =)

pressurized..

2005-01-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

he msged me in the evening.. asking if i wanted him to accept the testimonials i've written for him.. i told him that it was up to him.. he could accept if he wanted to and delete if he wants to too.. i juz wanted to see wad he would end up doing.. in the end.. he kept and accepted the testimonials ans said ' u write for me of cos accept lah ' .. i was kind of shocked at firz.. but pleasantly shocked.. =) then after that i apologised to him for not being good enough for him.. he replied that that was not true and that i was too good to him.. and thats why he felt pressured.. HUH?! being nice to a person also can make that person pressurized one arhz.. then i might as well be a mean peeg.. wad does he want me to do lahz.. i be nice dun want.. i be mean also dun want.. THEN WAD.. gawdz.. veri irritating lehz.. wth does he want me to do.. u feel pressured.. then tell me wad u want me to do lahz~ to help urself and help me.. nvm.. tmr school reallie starts.. have to follow timetable liaoz.. and sTuDy.. sigh.. tmr also got pe.. dots.. not nice not nice.. nvm.. can learn new things.. okiez.. i go slp early tonite.. sLeEp TiGhT~ hugx

ignorance is bliss??

2005-01-03T17:50:00.000+08:00

saw him in school todae.. tho we're in different class.. but our classes are beside each other.. so i feel comforted somehow.. we were like strangers.. total strangers.. like as if we had nvr ever seen each other before.. let alone be in a relationship.. i saw leon and darwin together during recess.. both of them saw me.. but onli darwin smiled at me.. leon juz pretended that he didnt noe me.. he juz ignored me.. how could this be when darwin was my friend and leon was more than that.. seems like he reallie doesnt treat this like a proper relationship animore.. it has been veri obvious actuallie.. but tho he does this.. he still doesnt want to break up and end everything.. not that i want to.. cos i reallie reallie dun.. but if hes going to ignore and not care abt me for the rez of his life.. then.. why carry on.. i mean.. wads the use.. when we dun even talk, look at each other, or even say hi.. and juz act like complete strangers.. i dunno i dunno.. i dunno wads going on in his mind.. i feel like talking to him in school abt this matter.. but i doubt that he would want to.. he wud juz give excuses and sae that hes not free.. so that we can leave the matter to rot.. sigh.. i hope that i can reallie reallie meet up with him and have a reallie good talk.. and ask him abt wad has exactly happened.. wad happened in europe.. wad happened when he came back.. why the sudden change of feelings.. why why why.. juz soo mani questions in my blardie head now.. cant stand it.. todae cried again.. but lucky it wasnt in school.. it was outside school.. when yar asked me abt it and i told her abt it all over again.. i couldnt hold back my tears.. stupid me.. and now i cant help but feel useless.. i feel like its all my fault.. i cant save.. i cant salvage this relationship.. this relationship that i treasured and cherished so much.. is it all going to end soon.. hope not.. seriously dun want it to.. i wish that things could and would go back to how they were.. how happie we were.. how we would laugh together.. smile at each other.. do hand signals across the classroom.. HOW I WISH.. hais.. im juz hopeless lahz.. i cant do anything.. nothing at all.. to help us.. to save this relationship.. i reallie want to.. its all my fault.. i cant do anything.. cant even make him talk to me.. SOBS~ i miss him.. i reallie do.. i miss him alot alot alot.. wadeva he has done.. i juz cant seem to blame him or hold grudges or be angry with him.. all i can do is blame myself.. maybe i didnt shower enough love on him.. maybe i juz didnt express myself well.. maybe im juz simply not good enough for him.. im so sorrie.. im reallie so sorrie.. maybe i didnt treat u well enough.. maybe i didnt make u feel loved.. altogether.. maybe i juz wasnt a good girlfriend.. i apologise sincerely.. i didnt expect things to happen this wae.. i love u.. *hoping*

sobs

2005-01-03T00:04:00.000+08:00

guess wad.. nthg happened tonite!! he nvr even msg me.. wad nonsense sia.. haiz nvm nvm.. i juz msged him goodnight.. and he shud be aslp liaoz.. i miss him like crazee wazee lehz.. and tmr can see him.. yAy~ hehee.. but dunno wad to do when i see him.. juz ignore and pretend hes not there or smile and say hi.. dunno lehs..but nvm there then see wad i'll do hahaha.. i dun wanna go school dun wanna go school.. have to slp so early.. like todae.. nvm its gd for my health lol.. kkz i go slp le and dream of him wakakas =x GoOdNiTe~ dun let the bed bugs bite lol =p

smilex!

2005-01-02T21:01:00.000+08:00

* never give up on the things that make u smile *
i want to see u smile so..
sMiLex aLwAeS! =))

=?

2005-01-02T20:55:00.000+08:00

sowie sowie.. sOo sorrie that i didnt post last night when i said i would.. =x cos i wasnt at home.. i spent the night and well.. half a day at shulin's house.. shulin's my church friend.. yup yup then we watched vcds until 830am.. DOTS~ wakakas.. heheh.. we watched 13 going on 30 firz.. then my tutor friend then love actually then hot chick.. haha that man can reallie act gay one.. so obscene somemore lol.. and finally we watch my sassy girl.. veri veri nice lehs.. so touching until weijie and shulin cried.. but its a reallie very sweet show.. nonono~ my tutor friend that show cuter.. erm or should i sae the actor cuter =p.. he reallie veri kawaii de lehs.. sOooo cute then shulin and i we were there like kept saying.. wa lao he so sweeet so cute he smile so handsome!! wakakas.. i wanna buy the vcd too hehx.. uhz ya then in between we ate alot alot of chips and junk food.. but i soon stopped liaoz.. cos so late le then my jaw no strength no energy.. my body not functioning properly haha fall into sleeping mode le.. lol maybee its juz cos i have a weak jaw bahz.. thats wad zhan said.. oh ya oh ya.. jack, weijie and shaun.. hmm dunno if his name is spelt correctly.. yep they were there too.. then they say those vcds that we warch are all bimbo shows de wahahaha! or another name is chick flick.. bleahz lol but i like to watch that kind of shows.. thats juz me.. erm ya then i talked to weijie for awhile.. and jack told me wad he did for the girl he like.. he can be sweet sometimes also lahz lol.. yep then after that we went to slp le.. i hugged ahulin's metoyou bear and fell aslp.. cos it reminded me of leon.. hais... watching the shows made me kinda sad too.. cos everything reminded me of leon.. why does things have to be like that..

in the morning.. i was awakened by the vibration of my handphone.. leon sent me a msg.. i msged him before i slept.. asking him to explain to me wad had happened.. so he told me that he juz nvr see me for too long.. the same old thing again.. i dunno.. i dunno if its reallie true or not.. all i noe is.. that cant be the onli reason behind this whole mess.. he muz be hiding something from me~ that peeeg hais.. then i replied him asking.. if he saw me.. wud things be alrite again and go back to normal.. then he said 'aiya... i like u lah... =)' that was the whole msg exactly.. i copied and pasted it... soo.. IM SO CONFUSED NOW! *sigh*.. one minute treat me so cold.. treat me like shit.. the next minute come and sae u like me.. of cuz im happie lahz.. in fact veri happie that u finally said it out.. but im juz so blardie sick and confused now.. i hate all this.. anyone who's in my shoes would hate it aniwae.. cos it reallie sucks.. i dunno wad to do now.. the nite before he msged me again saying that hes not a good boyfriend and that hes sorrie.. dun tell me all these.. juz tell me wad the hell is going on.. and i'll be contented.. ok i cant wait to see wad happens tonite.. and school is going to reopen tmr liaoz.. sOo soon.. its like less than 12 hours awae.. okokiez i'll update later again.. RoCk On~!